My body is no longer my own.

So far the experience of being pregnant has been a tough one for me. I wasn't expecting morning sickness to be so bad and to take over my whole life. The constant intense nausea I felt all day long came as such a shock. I had read about morning sickness and I had heard other people talk about it. But I realised no one had ever expressed how bad it could actually be. However, since being pregnant, I have heard women's stories of constant vomitting, constant extreme nausea, inability to function or cope, etc - sometimes lasting their entire prenancies! Why hadn't I heard these stories before?

For me morning sickness feels like I am on the verge of vomiting 24 hours a day (remember a time when you had food poisoning or gastro or drank too much.. remember how you felt just before you vomitted.. that's how I felt all the time). For the first three months of pregnancy I have felt like I have some really horrible disease! Some days I didn't know if I'd be able to get through it or if it'd ever go away. I tried EVERYTHING that was suggested to me and some things eased my morning sickness by like 1% or something.. but there is nothing that ever made it manageable. I could barely eat anything at all.. and all I could think about is what I would give just to be able to eat a meal. I felt terrible if I ate but I felt terrible if I didn't eat.

Happily, my morning sickness is starting to ease now! :) I still feel sick but not as sick as I was. I can eat more foods now and I do have moments where I almost don't feel sick anymore. So thankfully I assume that means I will not be sick for the whole pregnancy. :)