Friday, 29 August 2008

Having a baby isn't work.

Ever since I announced at work that I am pregnant I have constantly been told how lucky I am that I am 'getting out of work'. Some of my work mates seem to be under the impression that I am leaving work to go on holidays or to enter into some life of luxury. There was even one guy who said "You are so lucky I wish I could get pregnant so that I could leave my job!" Ummm.. isn't having a baby more work? 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, many years work?!

Wednesday, 20 August 2008

Pregnancy - 32nd week.

Yes I am now 32 weeks pregnant, which I cannot believe! There's only 2 months to go!

Here's a general update of what's going on:
  • Just in the last week my back has started hurting all day long. I find it extremely hard to sit for long periods of time.

  • My belly is growing at a much faster rate now. I keep meaning to get Greg to take pictures but never think of it when we are both around! Oh and I still get told I'm really small by a lot of people and have at times felt that they meant that I or my baby aren't healthy. But I've finally realised that people are referring to the fact that I have only grown in my belly and no where else.

  • A couple of weeks ago we started purchasing things for the bubs room, while also trying to get rid of things, so that the new bub things will actually fit in the room!

  • We've attended baby classes over the last few weeks, which have now finished. My favourite moment was watching Greg change a nappy on a baby doll. :) I hope that means he's an expert now. ;)

  • I am finishing work on the 5th September and am really looking forward to being able to sleep in, read books and prepare for the bub's arrival. :)

Thursday, 14 August 2008

Focussing on loss.

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.
- Alexander Graham Bell
I saw this quote a few weeks ago somewhere, at a time when I was focusing on loss. Of course I recently experienced the loss of my grandfather.. but I've also found myself thinking about the fact that I will be leaving my job and giving up financial independence and daily interactions with friends. I will also miss time alone with Greg and easily organised outings and trips away. I will miss sleep ins and actually just sleep in general. And I wonder if my identity will change?

After seeing the quote I realised that it is actually easier for me to focus on the losses rather than the gains at this time, because the things I will lose I already know about.. but the things I will gain are unknown to me. I know I am pregnant.. but I still can't fully connect with the fact that I will end up with a baby. I also know it'll be rewarding and I am very excited about becoming a mother and starting a family with Greg.. but I still can't imagine the bond and love I will feel for my child.

So for now I think it's ok to focus on the losses because the gains are still to come.. :)

Friday, 1 August 2008

As one life begins.. another ends.

My grandfather passed away yesterday after a long illness. It is a relief that he is no longer suffering and I hope that he is finally at peace. Though I am sad that he will not see his great grand daughter. He was so excited when I told him in March that I was pregnant and was determined to be around to see her. Unfortunately life doesn't always work out as we hope, but it's comforting knowing that new life is beginning as one life ends.....

R.I.P. Pa