At the start of every new year, I typically reflect on the year just passed. And as I reflect on 2011, I could easily say it was one of the worst years of my life, having lost my mother so suddenly.
Then it was hard to grieve in the way I needed to with someone so dependent on me. Someone who did not understand what I was going through. Someone who wanted my full, undivided attention. Someone who looked to me for strength and comfort, while inside I felt like I was falling apart.
But Maya was also my light who helped guide me through and I was often able to get lost in her enthusiasm, energy and lust for life.
And then there's the change I was finally able to make. Leaving a job I was unhappy with. Suddenly I had the confidence to leave without any backup job or plans for my future. I just knew I had to leave and better now than never. So I did. And it gave me some time out and space and led me to apply for jobs I normally wouldn't. It led me to attain a new job that I enjoy. And I am working there again this year with more hours and more opportunities.
Life is too short to spend it doing something you are unhappy doing. Perhaps you can't make a change right now. Perhaps you have to work towards a change. But what better time to start than now. xx
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