“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.”I saw this quote a few weeks ago somewhere, at a time when I was focusing on loss. Of course I recently experienced the loss of my grandfather.. but I've also found myself thinking about the fact that I will be leaving my job and giving up financial independence and daily interactions with friends. I will also miss time alone with Greg and easily organised outings and trips away. I will miss sleep ins and actually just sleep in general. And I wonder if my identity will change?- Alexander Graham Bell
After seeing the quote I realised that it is actually easier for me to focus on the losses rather than the gains at this time, because the things I will lose I already know about.. but the things I will gain are unknown to me. I know I am pregnant.. but I still can't fully connect with the fact that I will end up with a baby. I also know it'll be rewarding and I am very excited about becoming a mother and starting a family with Greg.. but I still can't imagine the bond and love I will feel for my child.
So for now I think it's ok to focus on the losses because the gains are still to come.. :)